Colour Coded

And I see it in their faces
quite often
and especially the older ones
my white skin matters to them
makes them proud and maybe even grateful
reflected in their overly eloquent thanking me for coming
for gracing the occasion with my presence
and I think I understand why they react like that to me
and it makes me feel rather inadequate
I would love to be able to give them what they think they get from me
to be part of that desperately needed bridge they imagine when they see me
and I don’t know how to say it to them
you see
it doesn’t really matter what I do
because I’m not a South African