Exorcist Needed

How I wish I could meet you without bias
and all my biased stress
how I wish that large parts of my personal story
the parts that are sad and sorry
didnít compel me to loose my trust in you before
you did anything to justify my prejudice and my waiting for more
bad behaviour from anyone like you
my thinking that you do me wrong no matter what you do

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last

How I wish I could see you without tints
that I would stop looking for hints
of negative traits in your personality
that I could stop arming this defensive army
which is there to protect me from things as yet undone
by you but done to me by someone
in a near or distant past a while ago
how I wish I were free to let my feelings grow

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last

How I wish that I could just react to you
instead of reacting to everything that others have done too
that I could just take it as it comes and not for more
without looking for parallels in my personal lore
that I didnít see the echoes of other people there
and start searching for bad intentions everywhere
that this near paranoid state of mind would pass away
instead of sucking me down like sticky clay

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last

How I wish I could interact with you without being so smart
that I could just relax and let go of my being on guard
that Iíd stop waiting for you to prove yourself unforgivably wrong
that I were stronger instead of just pretending to be strong
and never taking any shit from anybody
this kind of war tends to be tiring and bloody
and these things tend to turn out like you expect them to be
how I wish my sight were unclouded and that I could just see

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last

How I wish that I would count the things that you do right
instead of only counting any tiny little slight
I wish I could be happy for the things you do for me
instead of just expecting some oncoming misery
I wish that no thing that is now prompting me to be like this
had ever happened to be in the way of future bliss
I wish I could let go of all thatís sore and sad
and start participating freely before this also turns out bad

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last

I need an exorcist
to clear this confused mist
of hurts and wounds unseen
to take my love lifeís slate and wipe it clean
of ghosts of lovers past
and relationships that didnít last